There are days that when I wake up, I want to eat. I don't mean eat a bagel with cream cheese and I'm set, I mean really EAT.
Days that I don't want to stop chewing to talk to someone. They may talk to me, and I will answer with head nods, grunts and pointing until they figure out what I'm saying. But to stop and talk... my mouth is already occupied.
Please don't judge, or mock. It's an urge. The bottomless pit that is referred to as my stomach goes to great lengths to let me know what it needs. I've tried clasping it with my hands, prodding and poking it into submission. It still wants. It's a necessity.
I'm not much unlike this cow. Eating and chewing and eating again make up a majority of some days. Visitors don't bother or nudge me away from my food. I just keep eating, keep chewing. Letting them do the talking. I will stare, I'll smile, I'll nod. And I'll eat.
The last time I resembled this bovine creature, I was pregnant. I want to feel that way again.
You will!!!
ReplyDeleteI look like this cow now, sans baby in my belly : (
It is so funny you should mention the amount a pregnant woman eats because I was aware of that, but I had forgotten really HOW MUCH I had eaten! You are right! I would eat while everyone around me talked, and I remember getting annoyed when someone would ask me a question while I was eating since that meant I had to stop to answer them. "How are you feeling?" "Great, until you started asking me questions!"
ReplyDeleteThis would be me...especially at 10:00pm! I am ready to throw down a meal right before bed!!!
ReplyDeleteI feel like this when I feel stressed. If a baby is what you desire I so wish it for you. :)
ReplyDeleteyep, that describes how i feel! cute cow
ReplyDeleteI can definitely relate! You just keep on eating! We don't mind!
ReplyDeleteLOVE LOVE LOVE these pics! You are a genious!
ReplyDeleteokay...me totally wants to know how low you had to go for these? tee hee....love the perspective. ♥
ReplyDeleteand now I'm incredibly hungry. thanks....
oh man, do I ever know that feeling! And I've never even been pregnant!
ReplyDeleteGreat cow close-ups! And yes, i know what you mean. It seems like i eat way too much every day. I just hate being hungry.
ReplyDeleteI just read about your loss. So sorry to hear that. You'll be eating like that again in no time! I lost one last Sept and found sooo much comfort in food afterwards... Here's to us both trying again! ;)
ReplyDeletei can't wait to show owen those pics when he gets up from his nap. cows make him giggle in a way i've never heard! those are so fun!
ReplyDeleteand man...i totally know what you mean! eat, eat, eat...sometimes it's all i can think about!
haha these are awesome! you will be like that again and I can't wait :) love you!
ReplyDeletegirrrrl, your hormones are in transition and you're a twig anyhoo...don't sweat it...just eat! love ya! blessings...
ReplyDeleteOh that face! The spotted snoot! I love these shots!
ReplyDeleteI TOTALLY understand - it's getting colder where I am and the colder it gets the more impossible it is to STOP eating! I feel like a waste disposal unit or something. Also - love the pictures of the cow :)
ReplyDeleteOh I understand you :) cute pictures!
ReplyDeleteI don't see how this eating frenzy and pregnancy are related. Nope, I think it's just a natural part of being... well, human. Or maybe that's just me? Still... I'd love to be pregnant again, too. Good luck to you.
ReplyDeleteTabitha -- Only you can give us a new perspective, literally, on cows and at the same time admit to that always-empty feeling we try so hard in so many ways to fill up. Thank you once again for such a thoughtful post.
ReplyDeleteVery interesting perspective! I can relate to that cow for sure...
ReplyDeleteYou got REAL up, close, and personal with that cow. LOL. Here's to good eats...cheers!
ReplyDeleteLove the pictures, and I love reading your posts, you have a specific way of writing that makes you want to read more. LOL
ReplyDeleteUgh. I could almost be a vegetarian. Almost!
ReplyDeletehilarious.
ReplyDeletexo
Could there be another baby blue on the way? ;) Love those pictures.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you get to feel that way again soon, very soon. And all the other nasty feelings that go along with it. :)
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