Obviously I need to relax and I'm ashamed to admit it. Or at least I was.
I found myself trying to multitask while steeping in a lavender bath meant to relax me. I had a book next to me meant to stir creativity, a face mask and cleansing drink, scrubs, my phone... In case I thought of something spectacular or just needed to send a quick email because I forgot to earlier, and I was sorting my kids toys left in the tub from the night before. It was time for an intervention. So I intervened on myself.
And okay, as I pecked that last line into my phone's keypad, I heard an all too familiar "ding!" and switched over to check my email. Seriously. I'm slapping myself for you.
There are times that I feel energized, empowered even, by this life is happening, let's do it all parade that seems to blast through my home. We want to move? Plan a community-wide event? Throw an all-out birthday/going away party? Make the most out of this summer, swimming, playing, picnicking, visiting? Why yes! And maybe we can do it all at once, like the guy that spins about fifty balls on his body at the same time and makes mamas feel guilty. Remember that guy?
And while I love the adrenaline that comes with schedules that have to be managed, remembering five things at once and laughing about the one that was forgotten, and carrying sleepy babes to their bed after a long day has them worn and cuddly... I'm also tired.
But I know the see-saw must shift and bring with it a day where rainy skies and cleared schedules make way for burrowing deeper into our blankets and yielding to a sweet calm as we crowd our bodies close and DO LESS. And I don't think those days can be so fulfilling, so precious, without the days of chaos. It's hard to fully appreciate a day of rest until you've had days where rest is far from sight.
A little moment shared at the pool tonight with friends.
Until that day arrives, I'm learning a few things along the way...
Say YES to the right things.
Which coincidentally means saying NO to the things that sap energy and time without making a sufficient deposit into our "Happiness" accounts. What makes you happy? What makes you thrive?
And guys, I actually had to question blogging... But blogging makes me happy. It's reignited a passion for writing. It's given volume to a voice that was inside me. It inspires me to look at life in a different way and enjoy the small, beautiful things. I built relationships with women I've never even met. And at times where I've felt alone, or that I could be the only one... a little comment would make it's way through that said just the right thing.
Just like many of you.
And for that I say, thank you.
Take time for yourself.I find myself stealing away moments. Moments of quiet. Moments to close my eyes. Moments to silence the deadlines and let myself dream. Amid the rough-around-the-edges kind of days and running-around-in-circles moments, just a few minutes to regroup keeps the mantra of DO MORE alive and going.
Do one thing, and do it well.Typing away on the keyboard while dear husband is trying to tell a story and Hell's Kitchen plays in the background? Guilty... as we speak. Talking on the phone while your daughter tries to explain her drawing to you? Been there. It always ends in an epic fail, with all parties feeling slighted and mama swims in the guilt. So I'm putting a hold on the multitasking so I can fully engage and enjoy what I'm doing when I'm doing it. And consequently? More seems to be accomplished and I notice the beauty in the little moments I might have missed... when I remember to do it.
So maybe I don't need that little bottle of "unwind" as much as I thought.
What about you, how do you find time to manage it all?